Let’s Talk: Mindfulness


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Yesterday, I was on a track to have a very, very bad day. It was a Monday, which was already hard enough, but it was my first Monday at work while my boss is out of the country (meaning many of his responsibilities fall on me while he’s gone). I don’t mind the extra responsibility, but I have to say…it seems that every time my boss is in a halfway-around-the-world time zone, something (or many things) go wrong. Well, that was my Monday.

I had a situation on my hands that didn’t seem to have a solution. We needed 13,000 envelopes to mail a customer letter by the end of this week and, at most, we had 5,000 of our most-expensive-to-print envelopes on hand. It is not my responsibility to monitor how many envelopes we have or to order them when we run out, and here I was needing a lot of envelopes that we didn’t have. I was realized that this situation, which was wholly not my fault, was quickly becoming my problem and I was likely to be given the blame if the letter wasn’t out on deadline. If I really had to, I could contact my boss and explain the situation, but there wasn’t really anything he could do. It’s not like he was hoarding 13,000 envelopes over in Europe or something.

Then, something miraculous happened. I listened to some “hold” music while on the phone with one of our vendors.

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On Grounding and Growing


9-13-13 feet shotNow that we are officially into our new house, we get to start doing all kinds of fun homeowner-y type things. The inside of our house remains a cluttered mess filled with boxes, which should drive me crazy, but I’m learning to be patient in putting everything away. It will happen, piece by piece, so in the meantime I’m not going to full-out stress about it.

However, the outside of the house is where we are focusing a lot of our efforts. Perhaps it’s because the lot holds so much potential, but I think the real reason is just that Sam and I love being outside and are so proud of the land we own. Sure, right now it’s got a ton of weeds and is completely overgrown, but it’s ours and we love it. Plus, I feel partially gypped out of my summer after all the wedding planning and coordinating so now that we have the time to be outside, we are soaking it in. Continue reading

Mo’ Thoughts – Begin Again


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I have a lot of things that I should be doing right now instead of typing this (most people have things to do two weeks before their wedding). In fact, I think because I have so many things to do, I’m avoiding them by pretending that this is the priority. Still, I feel that this is a priority, and this is what I need to do right now to keep my brain from exploding. This is the mental release that I need.

I am re-restarting to blog. I know, I know: I’ve said it before, and I said it before I said it before. But here’s the thing: this time, I’m serious about it. This time I mean it. 4rlz.

Last night I sat down with Sam and vented a bit about things in my (our) life. I admitted to procrastinating at work because I’ve been sucked into the blogosphere and am highly uninterested and unchallenged at my job. Here are the things I’ve realized, and why the blog is part of the solution (the blog is not the solution, just a piece of it):

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The Rebirth of the Blog


An interesting realization struck me today at work: I am not totally happy with my life all the time.

Ok, perhaps this seems like the norm, but I don’t personally think it needs to be this way. You see, there is a difference between “not being totally happy with my life all the time” and “envying the lives of other people who seem to lead more meaningful and interesting lives than my own.” I should clarify that I actually felt more like the latter, though I don’t like to admit it.

I fell into the dangerous world of the blogosphere today at work, and I found it hard to pull myself back out all day. I felt guilty sneaking peeks at blogs when I was supposed to be doing, you know, my real job, but I couldn’t help it. It seems the people in the world of blogs live these very rich, incredibly unique and wholly satisfying lives and my life is just…my life. They have all these cute clothes and picture-perfect smiles and delicious-looking, homemade-organic-garden-fresh meals every day (the pictures certainly don’t help my jealousy).

“Why isn’t my life like that?” I thought. “Why don’t I feel and have what these people post on the internet every day?”

Of course, I recognize that I had (have?) the total wrong outlook on this whole situation. Do these people work their asses off to produce these blogs? Of course they do. Are these people magically granted another two or three hours of their day that I just don’t have? Of course not. They just make the time and dedicate themselves to their work t produce a product they are proud to share with the world, and because they are proud of what they do, the lives they lead, the food they make, the workouts they do, the art they design, the Instagram photos they take, the clothes they sew…and because they cherish and share and embraace the work they do, people care about these blogs. The moral here? If you are passionate about something, someone else will recognize your passion and latch on to it, because people with passion for what they do are awesome and addicting characters. The world needs more passionate people, and I want to be one of these role models. I want someone who sees me on the street to think, “Wow, that girl has a glow about her.” I want my spirit to show through all the crap and clutter of this world, and I want to do it by embracing the life I’m living instead of becoming something I’m not.

My answer was to make my own blog, and this is it. This is the rebeginning of my world of blogging (more on that later). Why today? Why November 14, 2012? For absolutely no reason at all, other than this is what I must do and this is the day I must do it. That is what everydaying is all about.

Everydaying is my new mantra, my way to look at life:

Everydaying is the art of appreciating everything I have and not envying those who have something I want. If I want something, I am going to work hard to get it. It’s stupid to be jealous of someone when I just sit around and don’t work for it. Time to start working to get the things I want.

Everydaying means I will carve a life for myself out of what I am given, and not wishing or searching for things that won’t come to me in due time. This means the day I am given is the one I have, and I can’t spend it wishing I was doing something else or living someone else’s life. The life I have is fucking awesome, and I’m going to start sharing that life with others (including the cynic in my mind) in order to catalog the wonderful things I have in my life.

Everydaying means acknowledging the beautiful things around me all the time and searching out the best parts of the worst scenarios. My biggest everyday battle is rediscovering what I love about my hometown, which I moved back to immediately after graduating college. I always thought I’d be somewhere else, living an interesting life with good people, good food, and cool places to visit. The fact is, I do live in a place that has all those things, plus much more. The hard part is seeing that all the time, because when I look around, I mostly just see my town the same way I’ve see it for 23 years of my life. It’s not a bad town at all; it’s actually a really, really, incredibly fantastic town. My problem is that I can’t see that all the time. My goal is to start seeing it all the time. My solution is everydaying. It is my religion without the religiousness.

Everydaying is a noun, a verb, an adjective, a dogma, an outlook, a totally made-up word. But, most importantly, everydaying is a holistic idea that encompasses the optimism and satisfaction that I want to have present in my heart and mind all the time. This is the first day I dedicate myself to everydaying and to living the life I already have to its fullest and most beautifulist (also a made up word). Let it begin.